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In 1182, Pietro Bernadone returned from a trip to France to find
out his wife had given birth to a son. Far from being excited
or apologetic because he'd been gone, Pietro was furious because
she'd had his new son baptised Giovanni after John the Baptist.
The last thing Pietro wanted in his son was a man of God. He wanted
a man of business, a cloth merchant like he was, and he especially
wanted a son who would reflect his infatuation with France. So
he renamed his son Francesco, which is the equivalent of calling
him Frenchman.
Francis enjoyed a very rich easy life growing up because of his
father's wealth and the permissiveness of the times. From the
beginning everyone, and I mean everyone, loved Francis. He was
constantly happy, charming, and a born leader. If he was picky,
people excused him. If he was ill, people took care of him. If
he was so much of a dreamer he did poorly in school, no one minded.
In many ways he was too easy to like for his own good. No one
tried to control him or teach him.
As he grew up, Francis became the leader of a crowd of young people
who spent their nights in wild parties.
Thomas of Celano, his biographer who knew him well, said, "In
other respects an exquisite youth, he attracted to himself a whole
retinue of young people addicted to evil and accustomed to vice."
Francis himself said, "I lived in sin" during that time.
Francis fulfilled every hope of Pietro's, even falling in love
with France. He loved the songs of France, the romance of France,
and especially the free adventurous troubadours of France who
wandered through Europe. Despite his dreaming, Francis was also
good at business, but Francis wanted more than wealth. Francis
wanted to be a noble, a knight. Battle was the best place to win
the glory and prestige he longed for. He got his first chance
when Assisi declared war on their longtime enemy, the nearby town
of Perugia.
Most of the troops from Assisi were butchered in the fight. Only
those wealthy enough to expect to be ransomed were taken prisoner.
At last Francis was among the nobility like he always wanted to
be...but chained in a harsh, dark dungeon. All accounts say that
he never lost his happy manner in that horrible place. Finally,
after a year in the dungeon, he was ransomed. Strangely, the experience
didn't seem to change him. He gave himself to partying with as
much joy and abandon as he had before the battle.
The experience didn't change what he wanted from life either,
which was glory. Finally a call for knights for the Fourth Crusade
gave him a chance for his dream. Before he left, Francis had to
have a suit of armour and a horse - no problem for the son of
a wealthy father. Not just any suit of armour would do, but one
decorated with gold, with a magnificent cloak. Francis boasted
that he would return a prince, but he never got farther than one
day's ride from Assisi. There he had a dream in which God told
him he had it all wrong and told him to return home. So he returned
home. The boy who wanted nothing more than to be liked was humiliated,
laughed at, called a coward by the village, and raged at by his
father for the money wasted on his armour. Francis had even given
his magnificent cloak away to a poor knight.
Francis' spiritual awakening took some time. God had waited for
him for twenty-five years and now it was Francis' turn to wait.
Francis started to pray and went off to a cave to spend time alone.
Sometimes God's grace overwhelmed him with joy, but life couldn't
just stop for God. There was a business to run, customers to wait
on.
One day while riding through the countryside, Francis, the man
who loved beauty, who was so picky about food, who hated deformity,
came face to face with a leper. Repelled by the appearance and
the smell of the leper, Francis nevertheless jumped down from
his horse and kissed the hand of the leper. When his kiss of peace
was returned, Francis was filled with joy. As he rode off, he
turned around for a last wave, and saw that the leper had disappeared.
He afterwards looked upon this as an incident sent by God.
His search for spirituality led him to the ancient church at San
Damiano.
While he was praying there, he heard Christ on the crucifix speak
to him, "Francis, repair my church."
Francis assumed this meant church with a small 'c', the crumbling
building he was in. Acting again in his impetuous way, he took
fabric from his father's shop and sold it to get money to repair
the church. His father saw this as an act of theft, and together
with Francis' cowardice, waste of money, and his growing disinterest
in money, made Francis seem more like a madman than his son. Pietro
dragged Francis before the bishop and in front of the whole town
demanded that Francis return the money and renounce all rights
as his heir.
The bishop was very kind to Francis. He told him to return the
money and said God would provide. That was all Francis needed
to hear. He not only gave back the money but stripped off all
his clothes - the clothes his father had given him - until he
was wearing only a hair shirt.
In front of the crowd that had gathered he said, "Pietro
Bernadone is no longer my father. From now on I can say with complete
freedom, 'Our Father who art in heaven.'"
Wearing nothing but cast off rags, he went off into the freezing
woods, singing. When robbers beat him later and took his clothes,
he climbed out of the ditch and went on singing again. From then
on Francis had nothing, and everything.
Francis went back to his work for God. He begged for stones and
rebuilt the San Damiano church with his own hands, not realizing
that it was the Catholic Church with a capital 'C' that God wanted
repaired. Soon Francis started to preach, although he was never
a priest. Francis was not a reformer; he preached about returning
to God and obedience to the Church. Francis must have known about
the decay in the Church, but he always showed the Church and its
people his utmost respect. When someone told him of a priest living
openly with a woman and asked him if that meant the Mass was polluted,
Francis went to the priest, knelt before him, and kissed his hands,
because those hands had held God.
Slowly companions came to Francis, people who wanted to follow
his life of sleeping in the open, begging for food to eat, and
loving God. With companions, Francis knew he now had to have some
kind of direction to this life, so he opened the Bible in three
places. He read the command to the rich young man to sell all
his good and give to the poor, the order to the apostles to take
nothing on their journey, and the demand to take up the cross
daily.
"Here is our rule," Francis said, as simple, and as
seemingly impossible, as that. He was going to do what no one
thought possible any more, live by the Gospel. Francis took these
commands so literally that he made one brother run after the thief
who stole his hood and offer him his robe!
Francis never wanted to found a religious order. This former knight
thought that sounded too military. He wanted to express God's
brotherhood. His companions came from all walks of life, from
fields and towns, nobility and common people, universities, churches,
and the merchant class. Francis practiced true equality by showing
honour, respect, and love to every person, whether they were beggar
or pope.
Francis' brotherhood included all of God's creation. Much has
been written about Francis' love of nature, but his relationship
was deeper than that. We call someone a lover of nature if they
spend their free time in the woods or admire its beauty, but Francis
really felt that all God's creations, were part of his brotherhood.
The sparrow was as much his brother as another person.
In one famous story, Francis preached to hundreds of birds about
being thankful to God for their wonderful clothes, for their independence,
and for God's care. The story tells us the birds stood still as
he walked among him, only flying off when he said they could leave.
Another famous story involves a wolf that had been eating human
beings. Francis intervened when the town wanted to kill the wolf
and talked the wolf into never killing again. The wolf became
a pet of the townspeople who made sure that he always had plenty
to eat.
Following Christ's example, Francis and his companions went out
to preach two by two. At first, listeners were understandably
hostile to these men in rags trying to talk about God's love.
People even ran from them for fear they'd catch this strange madness!
And they were right. Because soon these same people noticed that
these barefoot beggars wearing sacks seemed filled with constant
joy. They celebrated life.
People asked themselves: "Could one own nothing and be happy?"
Soon those who had met them with mud and rocks, greeted them with
bells and smiles.
Francis did not try to abolish poverty, he tried to make it holy.
When his friars met someone poorer than they, they would eagerly
rip off the sleeve of their habit to give to the person. They
worked for all necessities and only begged if they had to. But
Francis would not let them accept any money. He told them to treat
coins as if they were pebbles in the road.
When the bishop showed horror at the friars' hard life, Francis
said, "If we had any possessions we should need weapons and
laws to defend them."
Possessing something was the death of love for Francis. Also,
Francis reasoned, what could you do to a man who owns nothing?
You can't starve a fasting man, you can't steal from someone who
has no money, you can't ruin someone who hates prestige. They
were truly free.
Francis was a man of action. His simplicity of life extended to
ideas and deeds. If there was a simple way, no matter how impossible
it seemed, Francis would take it. So when Francis wanted approval
for his brotherhood, he went straight to Rome to see Pope Innocent
III. You can imagine what the pope thought when this beggar approached
him! As a matter of fact he threw Francis out. But when he had
a dream that this tiny man in rags held up the tilting Lateran
basilica, he quickly called Francis back and gave him permission
to preach.
Sometimes Francis's direct approach led to mistakes that he corrected
with the same spontaneity that he made them. Once he ordered a
brother who hesitated to speak because he stuttered to go preach
half-naked. When Francis realised how he had hurt someone he loved,
he ran to town, stopped the brother, took off his own clothes,
and preached instead.
Francis acted quickly because he acted from the heart; he didn't
have time to put on a role. Once he was so sick and exhausted,
his companions borrowed a mule for him to ride.
When the man who owned the mule recognized Francis he said, "Try
to be as virtuous as everyone thinks you are because many have
a lot of confidence in you."
Francis dropped off the mule and knelt before the man to thank
him for his advice.
Another example of his directness came when he decided to go to
Syria to convert the Moslems while the Fifth Crusade was being
fought. In the middle of a battle, Francis decided to do the simplest
thing and go straight to the sultan to make peace. When he and
his companion were captured, the real miracle was that they weren't
killed. Instead Francis was taken to the sultan who was charmed
by Francis and his preaching.
Francis did find persecution and martyrdom of a kind among his
own brothers. When he returned to Italy, he came back to a brotherhood
that had grown to 5000 in ten years. Pressure came from outside
to control this great movement, to make them conform to the standards
of others. His dream of radical poverty was too harsh, people
said.
Francis responded, "Lord, didn't I tell you they wouldn't
trust you?"
He finally gave up authority in his order. Now he was just another
brother, like he'd always wanted.
Francis' final years were filled with pain as well
as humiliation. Praying to share in Christ's passion, he had a
vision of receiving the stigmata, the marks of the nails and the
lance wound that Christ suffered, in his own body.
Years of poverty and wandering had made Francis ill. When he began
to go blind, the pope ordered that his eyes be operated on. This
meant cauterizing his face with a hot iron. Francis spoke to 'Brother
Fire': "Brother Fire, the Most High has made you strong and
beautiful and useful. Be courteous to me now in this hour, for
I have always loved you, and temper your heat so that I can endure
it."
Francis reported that Brother Fire was so kind that he felt nothing
at all.
How did Francis respond to blindness and pain? That was when he
wrote his beautiful Canticle of the Sun that expresses his brotherhood
with all creation in praising God. Francis never recovered from
this illness. He died on October 4, 1226 at the age of 45.
Adapted and reprinted with
permission from: http://saints.catholic.org/saints/saint.php?saint_id=50,
Catholic Online. Copyright 1996-2000 by Terry Matz. For further
information please contact catholic@catholic.org.
Q: St Francis started his life without any interest
in God or spirituality. What happened to change his direction
away from the material life to the spiritual?
Q: St Francis left behind him the attachment he had
in his youth to the material pursuits of wealth, glory and pleasure.
He placed his material welfare totally in God's hands by becoming
a wandering preacher. Do you think he found a balance between
the material and spiritual aspects of life? How would you try
to find a balance between the two?
Q: How did St Francis respond to humiliation, pain,
and challenges? Can you relate his behaviour to some of the maxims
of Sahaj Marg?
O, Master!
Thou art the real goal of human life.
We are yet but slaves of wishes
Putting bar to our advancement,
Thou art the only God and power
To bring us up to that stage.
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